This just a quick note. I awoke this morning and felt rushed to get ready for a meeting. Then I felt slightly blah. When I got downstairs I thought about today and realized that I had to focus on this day and the God of my understanding. So, I did. Why? Because I wanted to stay sober one more day.
Then another thought hit me. How did I get into this thinking mode? I realized that it all started when I made up my mind to seek help for my drinking problem. But it was more than that. My mind was running through a check list of what I needed to do this day to maintain my spiritual condition. I mean, after all, that’s what my sobriety depends on.
Where did all this consistency in thinking and acting come from? I looked back through the years I have been sober and then at the years of my growing up and then my years drinking.
My growing up years, until the age of nineteen, I didn’t have a clue. I was aimless and had no direction. At nineteen I began to drink, but then stopped, because I entered the seminary to study to be a priest. I spent four or five years being faithful to that “calling”, but then lost my faith for some reason. I left and began to drink. And then I came here.
I looked at the way I think today and noticed that all my references are to the BB. I can see that my whole life is outlined in the directions I have found in there. It’s so simple and direct. All that went before is relatively unimportant. I have never been so happy as I am in this life today. Like this morning. I knew exactly what to do. All I had to do was step out the door and live my life…in sobriety.
Moody friends. Drama queens. Your life? Nope! – their life, your story.