One of the things, which drove me crazy for years, was predicting the future. I would find myself constantly doing that. The consequences of that kind of thinking was fear, anxiety, nervousness, worry, and totally negative thinking. And one of the worst aspects was fear of self fulfilling prophecy. I feared that what I was worrying about would come true.
Of course, if I would get honest with myself and talk it out with someone and tell them what I was thinking, I would get the help I needed not to go there.
Fear of the future was always based on past events, which had turned out negative. I never ever fore casted anything positive. Or if I did, it was so over the top that it could never come true.
The cure for all of this crystal ball gazing is obvious. It’s right under my nose. It’s to stay in the day and deal with right now. Like they always say at meetings, I can’t get drunk tomorrow today. Or, I can’t do tomorrow’s dirty dishes today.
If I honor the day I’m living in and apply the principles of the program to my life today, there’s a pretty good chance that I’ll still be sober tomorrow. But even that’s projecting.
When my father passed away, I was getting ready to fly home. My sponsor pulled me aside, before the flight, and gave me some pretty good advice. He told me that the family would probably look to me to lean on, when I got home. He said that I wasn’t strong enough to support them and that I was to bring my program up with me and let them lean on the program. That really worked for me then. It’s still good advice. Wherever I go, take the program with me. And whomever I meet, let them lean on the program.
Anyway, I was thinking about this today.