There is nothing amazing about alcoholics being caught up in negative emotions. Been there myself, and have witnessed others going through the same things. All I know is that it’s very dangerous. Seen the results too many times and don’t want to go there.
One of the things my old sponsor, his wife, and a lot of those old timers helped me with was to turn me around so that those negative emotions were gone or cut down in size. All of that came as a result of them teaching me to place my intellect over my emotions. However I know better in a sense. I learned to pray and meditate and learned to step back and not to let them take charge of my life. Like I said, I had seen the deadly results too many times.
None of this happened overnight. Like they say in here, Time takes time. And that’s the truth. However, eventually I began to see the results. Anger and resentments began to be cut off almost at the start. I found with the help I needed I could walk away from them. I knew I needed this kind of help, and I was grateful I got it.
And all of this was the result of working these Steps. In fact I never ever forgot that moment I found myself restored to sanity, while I was working that Ninth Step. I can remember exactly what happened. I had stopped fighting everyone and everything, including alcohol. Just like the BB spells it out. One minute I was caught up in anger, and the next, without warning, it was gone. That and resentments. I was free.
That doesn’t mean that these haven’t come back. But now I can almost cut them off immediately. All I have to do is to remember to practice the spiritual principles I have been given in here. To depend on my Higher Power. To have the faith and hope I have been given. Again, and again, I am reminded of what that Ninth Step says. Worth reading. And, of course that Second Step.
Also I am reminded of the Third Step. To enter in and turn myself over. And then the Tenth and Eleventh, followed by the Twelfth. All part of practicing this program, as it was given to me. Makes me so grateful. Talk about the restoration to sanity. I have to thank my Higher Power and all those people in here, who helped me.