Tonight I got a call from someone, who wanted to share. And the truth is that it was a wake up call for me. I know they thought it was for them, but I felt I benefited from it more. I found myself slipping into a positive attitude, peace of mind, and felt hopeful.
This is what I found in this program, way back. My old sponsor helped me to begin to open up and share. Didn’t happen overnight. Time took time, as we are told. I had to learn how to let go of the negative within me. I had to learn how to change. And that’s what these Steps did for me, as they have for the members, who reached out and helped me.
I had to stop trying to fill my life up with material things. Didn’t mean I could not have material things, but they weren’t my goal. My aim had to be growing along spiritual lines. Staying sober a day at a time. Changing within, not without. I would see those, who had wealth, who owned this or that, who had all anyone would ever want. And yet they seemed to be empty within.
And I would see others, who had the same things, and were like the rest of us in here. At peace and happiness. Experiencing serenity and peace of mind. Having spiritual awakenings and restoration to sanity. The Promises. They were changed like the rest of us.
And yet I have seen others, who barely had anything, but had the same attitudes. Positive. Happy, at peace, and were giving away what they were given in here. I know, because I’m there myself.
Anyway, I was reminded of all of this. I’m so grateful. And once again I am reminded of why I am here. To stay sober today. A day at a time. Never tomorrow or yesterday. Right now. It makes me so grateful. I never ever want to drink alcohol again. I want to continue to change for the better.
My life is not perfect. I’m still a human being and not a saint. Like my sponsor pointed out to me, I will continue over time to fumble and stumble. I needed to learn to pick myself up and ask for my Higher Power’s help. To be grateful for all I have been given. To grow in hope, and faith, and love. Thanks.