One of the gifts I remember being given to me by my Higher Power and this program was the one of peace, which led to happiness in here. Up until that moment, I was driven by a focus on a lot of stuff which kept pulling me down one way or another. Not that I was thinking about a drink again, but I was stumbling within on and off.
I was reminded of this, when reading the April 5th page in the 24 Hours a Day book the other night. It was a reminder of what helped make me come to peace and working this program. And that was forgetting ourselves in this fellowship, and working with others, and praying.
Having to stop thinking I was in charge of my sobriety and how I was running my own program. Ego centered to say the least. This was way back, when I had come into this program. Talk about me stumbling over myself was what was happening. I owe an awful lot to those old timers, who helped me step back and stop. I had to be able to start to begin the need for humility. Once again today I had to remind myself to go back and read the Twelve and Twelve’s last page and last paragraph. That tells me how I have to obtain and practice humility. Getting out of my own way, and how I can help others.
It also reminds me of the gifts I have been given by my Higher Power, and how I have been helped by an awful lot of people in here. One of those reminders is for me to stay sober one day at a time and not project into the future, but stay into today. Anyway, I have to thank my Higher Power, and all those who helped me.