Today I was tied up with physical therapy for an hour. Very tough to say the least. But during a couple of these exercises I was touched by a lot of people, who have been suffering from all kinds of things. That turned the light on and I found myself praying for almost everyone. Brought my program right back to me. And a few stories I hadn’t chosen.
Part of what happened next was that the lady, who is my physical therapist, found two of my anniversary chips. One was my last one and one was my first year chip. She has an alcoholic in her family and knew something about the program and asked me a few questions. I think she already had some ideas of who I am, because she is a personal friend of my daughter, with whom I live.
I told her a number of things, and suddenly realized that I got pulled into response, because my mind had wandered off as a result of extreme physical therapy. I ended up asking her to keep quiet about what I had shared with her, and she seemed to agree. But I still felt uncomfortable. I have rarely told people outside of the program anything, and though she’s in between, family and AA I still felt a little off key.
I know I have been talking to a lot of people this week, who have been going through hard times, and hopefully have given them what was given to me over time by those old timers. I’m always comfortable there, because I know this is what I’m supposed to be doing. Hopefully my discomfort will pass, and I will settle down in a few more moments.
Anyway I have continued to pray and aimed at settling down. My mind has settled back into a day at a time. And my mind went back to that prayer, Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better serve Thee. And, no matter what, I still am grateful for all I have been given by my Higher Power, and all those in here who have helped me along the way. I was thinking especially today of my old sponsor and his widow, who were of so much help for me through the years. I need to say “Thanks, to all”.