Knowing God’s will for me is a mystery. What I do know is that I am to stay sober and never drink alcohol ever again. Anymore? I think so. I learned in here that I am supposed to help other alcoholics like myself. Anything else? I don’t know. I just have to be available and sober and we will see.
I have discovered, through my old sponsor, and other old timers, that the best thing I can do is to stay sober one day at a time. To attend meetings on a regular basis. To stay in the present and not the future or the past. To pray and meditate daily. To be grateful for all I have received. To thank my Higher Power and all those who have helped me over the years in here. To think and live on a positive basis and avoid the negative. And to remember to keep my Big Book and my Twelve and Twelve available and to read these from time to time to remind me of why I am here and to help me to do the right things.
All of this reminds me to stop and think of what my life is like on a daily basis. And that helps me to be happy and at peace. The mental and emotional gifts I have been given as a result of what I have been doing. And then, on and off, I will find the spiritual gifts I have received over and over again and again. Part of this is my being willing to talk to others like myself and to listen and pass along what was given to me.
And then there are these moments I have learned from AA, the BB, and experienced old timers in here, which tells me that not being a saint, and only a human alcoholic, I am going to find my mind wandering off from time to time, I get tripped up and tumble, and have to pick myself up, pray, ask for help, and even talk to someone like myself. I was told, and think I believe that this will go on until the day I die.
Anyway I felt I needed to stop and think about this once again.