My life got cluttered, my computer went down, and I forgot to write a message of my dealing with my sobriety. And very suddenly I was hit with two important thoughts: the First and Second Steps.
That’s all because of what is the most important parts of my life: staying sober and growing along spiritually. No matter what, I must always remember these two, because they have helped me to stay sober and grow and be happy and at peace with my Higher Power, myself, the program, and all I have known in this program.
I can always remember how that First Step came into being with me. For the very first time I heard that there was a way to get and stay sober. I went home, got down on my knees, and, for the first time in years, begged my Higher Power to free me from alcohol, and that I would do anything He wanted me to do. And I fell asleep. I woke up the next day and alcohol was gone from me.
Four days later I was introduced to AA. I have never ever forgotten this. It comes to me almost every day. Today I find that I’m at peace and happiness for the most part. But there was something else I needed.
My second old sponsor gave me what I needed to continue to grow and live this way of life in peace and happiness. And that was when he saw how much I had to change my life. He looked at me and said, “You don’t know that you don’t know. You only think you do.” And that was a wake-up call for me.
He was right. I had to stop thinking the way I did. I had to begin to change my mind from the darkness which ran it. And that’s when he introduced me to the BB’s chapter 4. We Agnostics, which opened the door to our spiritual way of life. It worked for me. I was faced with the negative, no spirituality, no Higher Power, and the possibility of going back out and drinking again. Or…I could change my mind, and accept a spiritual way of life with a Higher Power, my real sense of God, which gave me this peace and happiness I so desperately needed.
These two Steps have given me so much happiness, peace, and love. Faith, Hope, and Love, or charity. I’m sitting here and even have some humility I so desperately needed. All these gifts I was given by my Higher Power, and this program. Of course, also, my old sponsor, those old timers, and a lot of others in here, who have helped me. I need to say “Thanks”, and to grow along spiritual lines.