I hate being wrong, even when I’m right. I was right about what I was saying, but I allowed another person let me lose my temper. I was angry and walked away in the middle of an argument I shouldn’t have been in.
That spiritual axiom, whenever we’re disturbed there is something wrong with us. That was me. Just when I think I’ve learned my lesson I fall flat on my face. It wasn’t until later that I realized this. I was in the process of developing a resentment. Whew! How dumb can I be?
The other night I wrote about this and here I am running into another brick wall. Doesn’t really matter who’s right or who is wrong. I’m wrong and I know it. That mirror, the 10th Step is always there. I can’t lie to me.
Now I’m sorry. I need to tell that person, when I run into them again. Just hope it doesn’t start another argument. But for now I realize my mistake and need to ask my Higher Power to help me. I should have known better and walked away before I opened my mouth.
MYOB should have been right in front of me. I can’t assume someone elses problem. It’s really none of my business. I know that or should. Maybe it’s because that self centered nature of mine has got to stick my nose into where it doesn’t belong.
I thought I had learned that I have never been able to change anyones mind. I should know that I’m powerless over people, places, and things. Let go and let God. Get out of the driver’s seat and go to the back of the bus where I belong.
Anyway I had to stop and think about this. It’s a spiritual matter. It’s in God’s hands and not mine. Maybe this was a wake up call for me. Be aware and pay attention to what’s going on. I pray that I be willing to do God’s will for me and not my will.
Another lesson to show me I’m far from done. Time certainly takes time. Doesn’t matter how long I’ve been sober, I still have a lot to learn.