My old friend and mentor, Kathleen, used to tell me that the world is mesmerizing. It is isn’t it. I can get completely caught up in whatever is going on around me. I can become hypnotized, entranced, by what’s going on in the world.
I can become entranced in watching a movie. I can become so focused on other things that I will find myself obsessing on all kinds of junk. And when I’m like this, I can forget all the things most important in my life.
I was thinking of how often a resentment can occupy my whole mind, my whole being. All my character defects can take me someplace else, other than where I’m supposed to be. It’s hard to break through a state of trance like this and get back to consciousness.
The night I came to my first meeting, an old timer picked up the 24 Hour a Day book and read the Jan. 6 page. I’ve mentioned this before on many occasions, because I need to do this. The thought he read was about the most important decision I made in my whole life was my decision to stop drinking. Could I ever afford to forget it. That’s what I was thinking about this morning.