One of the big things for this alcoholic, and I know many others, is caring for others. Especially the newcomers. Very difficult in many cases. However I know my thoughts and talking to others is so very important. The list of those, who are going through difficulties keeps on growing over time.
That doesn’t mean that they are in grave danger of drinking again, but what they are going through physically and mentally has taken them down somewhat. I do know that many of them can get back up emotionally and express their gratitude to their Higher Power and the program itself, as well as those who have reached out and supported them.
And occasionally I can remember later on, after talking to some, that there are these moments of peace within. Not a sense of egomania, but one of almost humility. Hard to describe. I know I was on the phone with an old friend in another state, where we had gone out and helped others who needed it. We talked about a few of these and recalled our relating to others who desperately needed it. It was definitely uplifting to say the least.
And this was one of the great gifts I have been given. I can well remember how negative I always was, back when I was drinking.
And, over time in here this has totally changed. I need to thank my old sponsor and so many old timers, who helped me to begin to care and be willing to help others, who needed it. And often, I have found out that they are not aware of that. Just is.
Once again I am reminded of that prayer, “Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better serve Thee”. Often times I am not aware that it is what is going on. And then moments come when I become aware of what it is I need to do. And then I just do what I can. Makes me grateful to my Higher Power, and all those old timers, who helped me. And then I need to also thank those I talk to today.