Lack of power that was our dilemma. When I first read those words in the BB, I knew they were true. I was fresh out of energy of any sort. Like most of us, I had held on as long as I could to the “energy” alcohol had to give me. But by the time I got here, that was long gone. I was just drinking because I had to.
I was thinking today about the power which has been given to us through this program. A higher power. The God of our understanding. Through this power we have a daily reprieve from our alcoholism. It’s still a wonder to me.
What I was thinking about was the meetings we go to. I was struck by the thought that we go there to refuel ourselves with this power. In those meetings I know that we all make a connection with one another. We share a common purpose. It’s our alcoholism and our need to stay sober. I know that in doing this I am reminded to stay on course and what I need to do.
I am always reminded to pray and ask for help. I am reminded to be grateful for this gift of sobriety and give thanks. I am reminded to practice the principles of this program in all that I do. The meetings help me to remember that I am not alone and that this is a we program. Usually I am put back on track once again on this path we trudge one day at a time. And I am reminded of that very fact, that this is just for today. Right now.
But it is the “injection” of the spiritual life I receive in those rooms, which is so important to me. Whether I am aware of it or not at the moment. I know that often afterwards that during the rest of the day I become aware at some moment of what has transpired. At some point I realize that once again I have been restored to sanity. The sanity of sobriety.
I was thinking about this and being grateful to God, my Higher Power, and the group of people who gather together to make up these meetings and help me to stay sober one more day.