One of the things I was thinking about today was the Eleventh Step. How it helps me in my struggles along this path in staying sober.
Not just prayer, although that is essential I know, but the willingness and intention of seeking a conscious contact with the God of my understanding. Relying on what began this spiritual way of life I have found in here. The Second Step. Came to believe.
There are times, when I know the only recourse I have is to just sit quietly and seek to be in the presence of my God. Calming disturbances and just listening. I know that sounds like I’m expecting results. But not really. I’ve learned to have no expectations.
If there is a “result”, it’s not something I hear. It’s a slightly more open mind. A mind open to hear others in this program mainly. Opening up to listening to and often catching onto what is being said. Often getting answers I wasn’t expecting. Sometimes nothing more than a reminder I needed of some things I forget.
Calmness. Peace of mind and serenity. Results I can accept, without going and looking for them. Once again coming to see that things might be simpler than I thought before I sat down and started the Step.
I know this is an action Step, even though it seems I’m doing nothing more than sitting quietly. Like the Step says, “sought”. I’m seeking. Or at least trying to seek. That’s my part. The other part, the “conscious contact”, isn’t up to me. My part is clear. Just do it.
Anyway, I know this is part of my daily program of trying to maintain my spiritual condition on which the reprieve from alcohol is based. I know there’s more and this helps me to try to do that.
Just thinking.