Once again I was reminded of prayer, meditation, and hope and faith today. I woke up this morning thinking about all of this. And I know all of this is the result of my being sober. It was not here before I came into this program.
And, once again, I was reminded of the process I have gone through to have this happen to this chronic alcoholic. It all began a few days before I arrived in this program. I know it started when I surrendered to the fact that I was powerless over alcohol. The First Step, which I only learned about after I came through these doors. All I knew back then was that I could not stop drinking and it was forcing my mind to think about suicide to end it.
One of the gifts I learned I received, which brought this surrender to reality within me, was hope. Hope, which lit a bright light in the blackness of despair inside of me. It triggered prayer within and that started this journey I’ve been on for such a long time. Pretty much what Dr. Carl Jung told that young chronic alcoholic in the chapter in the BB, There Is A Solution.
And that gift of hope has led to another gift within me. Faith in my Higher Power, who did for me the impossible. Lifted the bondage alcohol had held me in for years. I was free at last, and that opened the door to a totally new way of life. A sober life.
Finally it opened another door inside. I was given the gift of love. I found that what was freely given to me by my Higher Power and those people in here, who have helped me, I can now freely give to those who need this way of life. For me that’s compassion.
Anyway I had to stop and think about all of this. It’s one way I can refresh the thoughts within and focus on why I am here. And that’s about my staying sober a day at a time. This is the result of the gifts I have been given in here. I am truly grateful.