The meeting today was on the Second Step and we could here them talking about the restoration to sanity in different ways. But, nevertheless, it was all about the return to sanity from their alcohol.
Even though I didn’t talk, I nevertheless has my own thoughts how this happened to me. I had totally surrendered my alcohol to my Higher Power, and the alcohol was gone, when I woke up. A few days later I was introduced to AA. I had already done the First Step, even though I had known nothing about it. So, if I wanted to stay sober and live a sober life, the next thing I was introduced to by my old sponsor was the Second Step.
My first thought about that Step was the introduction to a spiritual way of life. This opened the door to a new way of thinking and my living. And I found I had to begin a relationship with my Higher Power. And all this opened the door to a new way of living, thinking, changing, and, for me, the beginning of peace and happiness for the first time in so many years.
All of this was to take time. I had to first begin to live a day at a time and stay sober. Slowly, through the help of the man and his wife, who help take over my way of living and growing, I began to learn what they taught me, by my reading and studying the BB, and my attending meetings and listening to those old timers in here. And I had to learn to surrender my old ideas, my old way of thinking, and my way of living. Not easy.
I found I had to pray and learn how to meditate and think in a spiritual way, and how to try to stay focused on my sober living one day at a time. Not easy to begin with, but do-able with the help of a number of old timers, plus my sponsor, who had already woke me up by telling me that I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I did. And he was right.
All this took time. It went a long way before I finally was introduced to the Third Step. Nothing definitely changed overnight. Again I was just given the opportunity to begin to live a new way of life. But the new way was so helpful, even though, like I said, time took time. And I had to learn how to begin to express some gratitude to my Higher Power and all those helping me along the way.
Anyway, after this meeting today, I had to stop and think about all of this and be grateful.