Sometimes I stop, when I think about meditating or putting my thoughts down. It’s at these times my mind seems to just go blank. Yet I know, if I just start thinking about the solution, thoughts will come in spite of me.
Earlier I was entertaining thoughts about my Higher Power. The very fact that I was given a gift of freedom from alcohol and was able to get sober sits right there in front of me. Something I can never avoid thinking about. That gift is not something I earned. If anything I know I wasn’t deserving of it. Yet here I am many twenty-four hours later still on this path. The spiritual solution.
The reason is that I surrendered over and over again and accepted what was laid out in front of me. The program as it was written. As it was told to me by my sponsor and those old timers.
That thought brings to mind something my sponsor told me years ago. That, if I’m trying to help another alcoholic and they’re not listening or trying to follow the suggestions, I was to drop them. Isn’t that wrong? No, I was told. My involvement with them is depriving someone, who needs help and wants to get sober.
Over time I have learned the wisdom of what my sponsor and others were telling me. I had to learn to listen, even when I didn’t want to. Why? Because as difficult as it was for me to follow what I was hearing, I did it in spite of my reluctance. I knew someplace deep down within that what I was hearing was exactly what I needed to hear and that what I was doing was the right thing. And the results have borne that out.
It’s what healed the pain I was in at the time. My thought is that, when others don’t want to listen or follow suggestions, they haven’t reached their bottom. Sad to say, but perhaps they have to experience what I and others had to go through.
Funny thing is that this came up today, when an old friend called and presented this problem to me. They had gotten caught up in working with someone, who won’t listen. They told me the details and all I could think of was to stop and leave them alone. Always a tough decision to make. But like my sponsor and others told me that I was depriving someone else, who really wanted this program of the help I could give them. The help that was so freely given to me.
Anyway I was thinking earlier about my Higher Power and all that I have been given. Just thinking of gratitude.