I couldn’t help but react internally, when someone hurting today called and told their story. And why I reacted was it was apparent that what they were suffering from was their emotions. Even after they finished they had to admit it was truly their emotions.
Like everyone I have known in here, we all have gone through these emotional turmoil’s. I definitely know I have. But it’s these which set us off and blind us to what’s really going on. Emotions take over our thoughts. We are not in control, even though we may believe we are. In fact we probably will think that.
This is especially true, when we see those, who are under the influence of let’s say resentments, go back out and drink again. Although that has happened to others who are suffering from fear and depression, anxiety, self pity, and the rest.
That’s why I was told, as were others back a few years, that we needed to learn to ask for help from our Higher Power to control these. How often people under their influence are suffering from negative attitudes. In fact it was Bill W., who states that these results of our unconscious minds did so much damage to us, when we were out there drinking.
And for us I think it’s the application of the spiritual principles in here, which has helped someone like me to learn to turn these over to a Power greater than myself. In time it has helped me to put my intellect over my emotions. Or, as my sponsor said to me, Think with your head and not your heart. Something I had to learn in here over time.
This stuff always reminds me of why I’m here. I’m here to stay sober. I never want to drink alcohol ever again. So, I need to start my day over when I run into these negative emotions. I need to not only ask for help but to change my attitude from the negative to the positive. Otherwise I know I can sink down into the darkness of whatever it is that’s running my mind and changing me physically…and maybe even toward a drink.
Just another reminder of what I need to have in the front of my mind on a daily basis. To stay sober this day. It’s why I go to meetings and listen to be reminded of why I am here. To share and be shared with. I know from the experience of others that I cannot stay sober by myself. And I am grateful for all the help I have received from my Higher Power and others like myself. As always I need to say thanks.