Turning our wills and our lives over to our spirituality source. In my case, my Higher Power. I have to do this each and everyday, otherwise I might be setting myself up for another drink and then death. Seen this happen too many times. I need to do the right thing.
I know so many others in here, who, when asked, will say the very same thing. They, like myself, want to take each day, and dedicate us to staying sober a day at a time. But definitely want to stay sober.
I can remember, way back, when I came in here, I knew nothing about this program. All I knew was that I had surrendered to my Higher Power and asked to be freed of alcohol. And that’s exactly what happened to me. I woke up the next day and have never had a drink since then. So, I walked through these doors, thinking I knew what I needed to do. And my mind, wanting to control everything, made me think that I would never ever drink again and I didn’t need to think about staying sober.
I have to be grateful to my old sponsor, who was able to help me to stop and open my mind and begin to listen. That’s when he and those old timers pointed out, that if I kept thinking that way, I would probably find myself back out there drinking and dying. I have to be grateful for it helped me to begin to understand what it was that help someone like me to give up trying to control, and then let go and let my Higher Power begin to help me stay sober a day at a time.
I think a lot of things in that BB helped me begin to change. And, for those who know me well, they are aware that the story of Dr. Jung and that young alcoholic opened my mind to the truth. When Jung told that young man, that he had the mind of a chronic alcoholic and nothing could cure him, it opened my mind. I was stunned, because I had to believe what was being said. And then he told him that he would have to have a spiritual experience, if he wanted to get sober, and that made sense. Psychology was not the answer.
That’s what helped me to begin to put that Second Step into action within me. I finally had to admit that I needed to believe in what the BB told me. That I had to lead a life of spirituality or die an alcoholic death. I have never doubted that since then. And then I learned I had to begin to believe in and be willing to do what this program was about, not just a spiritual life, but to have a Higher Power to live with and follow. And, yes, it has worked. I have changed because I began to put this way of life into action.
Anyway, I had to stop and reflect on these thoughts, which are what help me to stay on track in here. To be willing each and everyday to live a sober life for one day at a time only. Makes me grateful for all of this. I need to thank my Higher Power, my old sponsor and those old timers, this program, and all the others in here, who have helped me to continue to stay sober.