I was listening to people today and was suddenly struck by what I heard. Not that I hadn’t heard this before, but I heard someone, who was fixed on their thinking. I know that’s the way I was, when I came in, but I learned something and gave that up. What changed me was what I was told that suddenly made sense to me. That was that I didn’t know that I didn’t know, I only thought I did.
Why was this so important to me? Because, if I had stuck to my thinking that I knew, when I came in, my “fixed brain” very well could have led me back to drinking again. I had to learn that I needed to have an open mind, and to begin learning in a very reasonable way, what I needed to know.
I have an old friend of mine in here, who learned he was a “control freak”, as he said. He now says that he had to learn that he was not in control, “driving a bus”, and he learned that he had to get out of the driver’s seat and go to to sit in back of “the bus”. He is often quoted about this many times in here.
Anyway, this opened my mind in today in here, which is exactly what I needed. A real wake up call for me. That I’m here to stay sober this day. And I need an open mind, to listen, and to share, what I have learned over time from my old sponsor and the BB. I know that I have to live a spiritual way of life. To pray and meditate, and to be grateful for all I have been given. I need to thank my Higher Power, and to give my thanks to my old sponsor and everyone else in here, who have helped me by their words and examples.