Clarity. That’s something I think is a difficult place to be. To see and be able to think with clarity. Particularly, when I find myself in a confusing place in my life.
Yet, at any moment, in confusion and chaos, I find that I am able to find clarity. All I have to do is what I was told to do over and over again. First calm the disturbance. And I can do that by stopping whatever I am doing and reach out and pick up the tools of this program and put them into action. Anyone of these 12 Steps, which applies to what I am going through at the moment.
First thing I was told to do by my sponsor was to go back to the basics. The first three Steps. He told me that a quick assessment of those steps give me a firm foundation on which to stand. A rock solid station, which can stabilize me in the midst of trouble and provide me safety in my sobriety and allow me to proceed to the Steps which will clarify my mind and my spirit.
If I am able to do so, I can go directly to the 10th and 11th Steps. At times I know that I have had the opportunity to put everything aside and do some work with another alcoholic. If my mind seems too cloudy, I know that I can refer back to the BB and find something, which will open my mind. Often it reminds me of what is wrong with me and what I can do about it.
But I don’t think that anything is more valuable than to be able to talk to another alcoholic. I have found that they often can sort out what is wrong for me, when I am unable to do so myself. Proof positive that I cannot do this alone. How often I have found clarity
and peace of mind through these people. It has helped me to stay sober.
Anyway, I was sitting here and thinking about this today.