I was reminded yesterday that it is an amazing grace which carries us through and helps us to continue this sober life. How easy it is to push this thought off to the side and to take this precious gift for granted. And it is a gift. It’s nothing I earned in those years of drinking or the life that went with that.
When I came here I was down and out and ashamed of the way I had conducted my life. At the end I was willing to take my life rather than go on. That’s how sick and insane I had become from alcohol. I had reached a point of despair so deep that I couldn’t go on. Then suddenly I was introduced to the idea of a way out. Someone told me of this program and in a moment everything turned around. It was a moment of grace. I was being given a gift.
Now I wonder if this grace wasn’t there all along. I just couldn’t see it. Alcohol had blinded me and deafened my ears. My spirit was in darkness. I was suffering from that soul sickness that Bill talked about. I’m reminded of the words that the light came into this world and the darkness could not comprehend it. I’ve known that state of darkness. I now know that state of light and don’t want to go back into that darkness ever again.
I need to take care of this precious gift. It comes to me anew each day I awake. It’s up to me to nourish it so that it can flourish and grow. It’s up to me to acknowledge it’s source; the giver of the gift of grace. And, it’s so simple. All I have to do is to practice these steps and their spiritual principles in my daily life. I am to become graceful by passing it on to those around me. It’s not mine for the keeping but for the giving. I believe that’s how grace works. It’s what I was taught by those who went before me. They lived it.
Someone passed this grace to me. I am grateful and I need to show that.