This morning those words in the BB came to me early on. “We are neither cocky nor are we afraid.” Hmm. What was this about? This is the part in the BB where it’s talking about that promise in the tenth step. It’s talking about the return to sanity. Freedom from having to think about a drink. The release from the mental obsession we had with alcohol. Being placed in a position of neutrality.
Yet, there was that word “cocky”. Who me? I’m not cocky, am I? I haven’t thought about a drink in long time. So, what’s the problem? Then I think, maybe the reason I haven’t thought about a drink is because I have been placed in a position of neutrality.
Then the thought comes, did I ask what God’s will was for me this day? Did I ask for his strenghth to carry out his will? The answer was no. Oh, when was the last time I thought about that? If I’m doing this myself, then maybe I am being cocky. Maybe that’s why this thought came up.
I was on the phone with another alcoholic for a long time today. He’s in a rut. For a lojng time now, he has been doing things his way. Why was I having this conversation? He needed help. Who needed help? Him? Or me? After that phone call I immediately thankied God for that moment.
I was reminded, ask God for help in the morning, go to a meeting, and thank him at night for another day free from alcohol. A few simple rules, as the doctor said in giving his opinion.
Those were my thoughts today. Really simple. Makes me grateful for all that’s been given to me.
Boardwalk for $500? In 2007? Ha!