I couldn’t help but think this morning of an old timer I had the priviledge of listening to many years ago. I still remember the impression he made on me. Here was a man, who after 37 years in the program say that the longer he was in the program the less he knew how this program works. I might have attributed that to his humility, but, as I grow closer to his time in then, I begin to see what he was saying is true.
I, also, remember listening to another alcoholic, shortly after that, who spoke at a meeting. He told us he wished he had been asked to speak when he had a year sober, when he knew what it was all about.
I know one thing; that if I stick to my experience in this program, I am usually on solid ground. But I believe the longer I stay sober the dumber I get. And the dumber I get forces me to keep things simple. This fact is a great blow to my pride and my deeply intellectual abilities.
Thank God for the Big Book and the people around me. Makes me grateful to Bill and the early members of AA that they were able to put down on paper, what I frequently forget. And thank God for the meetings, where I am often chastened by what others have to say.
Anyway, at least I can make the choice and ask for God’s help not to take a drink today. That much I do know. Just thinking.
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