One of the things which came up today was really the Second Step. Most of the group expressed their thoughts on just who the Higher Power is. At least one was an atheist. Another an agnostic. And the others? They had their own concepts of the God of their understanding.
But there were also those, whom I know, who passed. I knew they were tempted to share, but didn’t. I know they have deep thoughts on this. I did not express mine at the moment.
All I know is what others talked about. I know I had a crucial moment, when I prayed to the God of my understanding at the time, and asked for the help I needed to stop drinking and living the life I had been living and received it. The alcohol was taken from me and I came into this program and changed my life over time.
And all that really began when my old sponsor introduced me to that Second Step in here. I have always remembered that statement at the beginning of that Step. That I was either going to accept and live a spiritual life or I was going to die an alcoholic death. The latter I had already faced out there. I never ever wanted to go back to that way of life and death.
Alcohol had owned me. I had been its slave. Now, for the first time in my life, I was free. And here I was at a crossroad. I was being given a choice. Sobriety or the road to destruction. I knew the minute I saw that what I needed to do. I chose the spiritual way of life and committed myself to a Higher Power. I not only needed to stay sober, but I definitely wanted to stay sober for the rest of my life.
As the meeting went on I thought about it again. And when I got home I did the same thing. The truth is that probably think more about this than anything else. Except of course my being able to stay sober one day at a time. And it always makes me grateful to my Higher Power. I owe him so much, as I do this program and its people like myself.