One of the things today, which helped, was silence. I can pray and start my day, but every once in a while I need to just be quiet. No thoughts.
I remember I started to attempt to do this quite a while back. It’s called contemplative prayer. Just being totally quiet within for a short time. I know that others do this and for quite a while. Myself, it’s about fifteen to twenty minutes. Sometimes shorter. Depends on the moment.
Why am I writing and thinking about this? That’s because a long time ago I learned that prayer was defined as “Talking to God”. Meditation was defined as “Listening to God”. In other words being quiet.
Being able to be silent within, not thinking, is never easy for someone like me.
My mind wants to wander off this way or that. So being able to stay focused on nothing is extremely difficult at times. Yet there are those moments, when I finally can arrive at that point. Means that I have to be able to be undisturbed. Not always easy, when others are around.
I can remember a friend of mine, in another state, had a once a week meeting, where he had a few members, who wanted to do just that. I attended a couple of these, when I was down there visiting.
Anyway, I did this again this morning and was grateful I had those moments. All I wanted to do was what the Eleventh Step states. And as a result doing what I need to do on a daily basis. To stay sober. Makes me grateful.