It’s really amazing what we can run into from time to time. I just got a message from an old friend, who is going through a lot of being sick and suffering, and then another friend, who was going through a major change in feelings. It made me go back and think of what Bill W. wrote, when he talked about what my old sponsor helped me to change. The effects our negative emotions have on us.
This reminded me this morning of what it was like for me, when I was able to come into this program and begin to try to live a very sober life. And in the beginning I was truly wrapped up in awful junk within. That’s when my old sponsor pointed out to me that I was unable to know what was really going on with myself. He said that I didn’t know that I didn’t know, I only thought I did. I finally was able to begin to see what was blinding me.
I am so grateful that he began to help me to open my mind and stop letting these negative emotions cripple my mind. Over time he taught me how to step away from things like despair, and anger and resentments, and other dominating feelings, which controlled my thinking. I began to be open and using my head and not my feelings, which controlled my thoughts. I began to see the truth at last.
This is what helped me to finally let go of what alcohol had done to me. I started to mature mentally and finally to be able to make good thoughts and to begin to live a spiritual life. Able to truly live a sober life.
All this is what allows the grace that I have been given to be able to stay sober a day at a time. I am truly grateful to my Higher Power, and all those who have helped me to begin to grow and live a good life.