One of the most difficult things we all have to face is in one of those things, which can pull us down. And that’s our egos. Always that pulls me back to the Eleventh and Twelfth Traditions, which points out how important humility is to us alcoholics. To get out of our own way. We’re not here to be big “stars”. But to step aside and to be willing to give of ourselves to help others to get sober.
Like the literature tells us, principles before personalities. Not very easy. Several things made me aware of this today. That’s what I learned in here a long time ago. How our negative emotions can push us back into the spotlight so to speak. At this point it would be all about us. And it’s this which can very well pull us back into drinking alcohol again. Seen it happen too many times.
Yesterday I was talking to a very spiritual man, who once again made me totally aware of how important the spiritual life is to so many like us in here. For me to be willing to step back, rather than stepping out and drawing attention on myself. Again I was totally reminded of getting out of my own way. Not to let those negative emotions to ruin my life. But to depend on my Higher Power and how this program works, plus all those old timers, who helped me to let go and let the God of my understanding do for me what I need…to stay sober a day at a time, and to practice faith, hope, and love.
I had to learn to practice this program by applying compassion and love for those alcoholics who need help from and in this program. To be willing to give the help I was given by my Higher Power, and all those old timers, to whoever needs it. And to step aside, if I have to, in order not to get in the way. I’m not all that important. And I had to learn to practice, practice, over and over until I began to learn how to live this way of life.
Once again I need to do what I learned in here. To stay sober one day at a time. To continue to go to meetings and be reminded of what it is I need to do. To share with others, and to pay attention to what it is I need to continue to learn in order to stay sober and help those who need it. And to be grateful for all I have been given.