This is one of those days, when a “new” person is coming back. It made me and others talk about what helped us to get sober and what we had to do. And most of us told this person we had to get the help we needed from a sponsor.
I know that I told this person what it was that helped me to get sober and stay sober. And that was my second sponsor. And that’s when I told them what it was he said to me, which finally opened my mind and started to help me to stay sober the rest of my life. And that’s when he said to me, “You don’t know that you don’t know. You only think you do.”
I told them that it was this, which finally got me to face the truth about myself. I had been lying to myself over and over again and again. For the first time I was awakened. Somehow I had been aware of my large education should have been working for me. It wasn’t, because my negative emotions had me, totally within, mad and resentful, along with fearful, and on and on.
I couldn’t really think and be honest no matter what. I was under control, where I really couldn’t think straight, no matter what. I was going to have to learn what I really didn’t know. And that was when I began to be able to listen and learn from someone, who knew how to deal with this kind of erroneous thinking and change.
The next thing he did, which really began to open the door, was to help me to begin the Second Step, which started the development of my spiritual way of life, as well as the introduction to my Higher Power. And then the beginning of the rest of the Steps of this program.
Anyway, what I told was what also opened the door to what I was doing, which was trying to Twelfth Step another drunk like myself. Which always tells me why I am here. I’m here to stay sober one day at a time. And I need to live and practice our program of our spiritual way of life in here. And part of that is to exercise love and compassion for others like ourselves, as those old timers did for me. I was and still am very grateful for this. I need to thank my Higher Power, and all those old timers, including my sponsor, and then all the rest who have freely given to me overtime. Thanks.