Today was one of those days, when I was barely surprised by the subject of the meeting. The Second Step. Every time this comes up, it makes me comfortable. It was the Step which opened the door on this program for me.
Early on in this program, I had not learned anything about the fact that this program is actually very spiritual. My first sponsor, I did learn later on, only was relying on the First and Twelfth Steps, so I learned nothing of what I needed, if I wanted to stay sober and get well. In fact, he and another man I knew, who had about ten years in here each, drank again and died. That changed my mind about not doing this program.
It was my next sponsor, who had more years and experience, who opened the door to this program for me. And it was in this Step I needed, after I had already surrendered my drinking alcohol to the God I understood back then. And that was the Second Step. I have never forgotten that Step and how it changed my life, and opened the door to a spiritual way of life and my Higher Power.
So, it made a great meeting for not just myself, but a whole room full of members, most of whom had as much to talk about, since they also had gathered a lot of growth in this program from this Step. They had so much growth in here from this Step helping them to grow along spiritual lines.
I know that I often go back to this Step and what it did for me in here. Whenever we talk about spirituality in here, that’s where my mind goes. Just like it did today.
I heard a lot of very good thoughts, which helped me to focus me on what I need to live this way of life. I always go back and think how this opened me to relating to the God of my understanding, and how I was helped to seek, not just his help, but my being willing to do his will for all of us in here.
Anyway I had to go back and remember how grateful I am for what my second sponsor did for me, by opening me up to this Step. I do know that it helped me to begin to do what it was I so desperately needed to do. And the beginning of that was to stay sober one day at a time.
As a result, I began to pray and meditate, and then to grow along spiritual lines. To focus on why I am here, and how I can help others like myself. Makes me grateful to my Higher Power and all the help, the gifts and blessings I have received. And then my sponsor and all those, who have helped me in here.