One of the things, which came out today, were feelings. How they could control our lives, for the better or the worst. Mostly the worst. They very well could be an invitation to alcohol once again. I have seen that over my time in here, and how it has ended the life of so many.
Of course there is an answer to this, but so many do not want to do anything, which would tell them to change their thinking, and to let go of their feelings running their lives. The problems were quite a few. One was to stop thinking we know how to stay sober on our own. The thing, which helped me, was to come to know that I don’t know. I only thought I did.
And that’s where the need for all of us is to learn to listen to old timers, who learned from old timers. They had to find out how this program really works. And that brings up a second thought. That’s the Second Step.
I had to learn from an old timer how I needed to begin to live a spiritual way of life…and begin to start a spiritual relationship with a Power greater than ourselves. A God of our understanding. I did. And that, along with the rest of the Twelve Steps in here, and the Twelve Traditions. It changed my life for the better. I received the Promises in here. I became happy and loving for all I was given.
And I know I continue to grow, despite the fact that I am a human alcoholic and not a saint. My experience shows me how I can stumble and bumble and tumble. I’ve had to learn how to pick myself up, dust myself off, and stay sober a day at a time. I have to pray and try to live a spiritual way of life, as well. I also need to be grateful for all I have been given by my Higher Power. I need to do the same for my old sponsor and those old timers, as well as all those I know today, who have continued to help me.