Every once in a while I have to stop and think about what’s been going on, even though I haven’t done that at the time I was doing what I was doing. And the reason I was doing this was because it had to do with the Second Step. The spiritual life.
What I was doing this time was remembering things I had done a while ago. And once again it was a reminder of what I really don’t take the time to stop and think about. And that’s having a reminder of my talking to others in this program. What’s that all about? It’s a memory going way way back. What I learned from my old sponsor and those old timers then. Helping others.
I realized, once again, that often it is what I learned from the past that I had to have the faith, the hope, and the love…compassion… which came out from what they were talking about. Helping, if they want and need it, to take in what they should be doing. I’m told what has been going on, and then helping them to think about what they need, and probably should be doing.
And I have to go back to that prayer I continue to say. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may do Thy will.
Anyway I am grateful that I have these moments, when I try to do what I have learned in here. Helping others. Not something I think about. It just happens and is done in spite of my thinking. It just happens in spite of me. And I am grateful to my Higher Power and all those, who helped me to continue to grow in here. Part of my staying sober a day at a time.