Funny thing happened today, which proved to be a blessing in disguise. Quite a while ago there was this movie, which the song writer Irving Berlin wrote the music for. And that was the Bing Crosby musical “White Christmas”. And one of the songs he wrote was “I pray a blessing instead of sheep”.
In fact there was a time, when troubled sleepers were told that if they pictured sheep and began counting them, they could fall asleep. And Berlin came up with the thought, count your blessings and you will fall asleep. And that thought had been little by little beginning to enter my mind.
When I got sober, I remembered that along the way in here I was always being given blessings I needed. And slowly, over time in here, I began to be given blessings, which helped to change my life. On and off I would remember what these were, over and over again. They helped to reinforce my changing from the alcoholic I was into a sober member of this program. The Second Step, after the First. And then on and on.
And today I amazingly remembered the words, “When I am worried and I can’t sleep, I count my blessings instead of sheep, and I go to sleep counting my blessings.” I hadn’t thought of doing that, but it made me recall what was helping me. And then I was suddenly hit with this thought.
Anyway it made me stop and think about something, which had to do with what I had been given over time in here. Blessings which helped to change my life or reinforce the changes I had been given. A way to step away from negative thoughts, when we find ourselves bothered. Like the Ninth Step reminds this alcoholic in the BB: “The spiritual life is not a theory. We have to live it.”
Just a thought.