This night is one night that I’m glad that I’m going to stay sane and at home. There’s going to be a lot of drinking as always, but I’m content not to be part of that scene. And I haven’t been for a long time.
I attribute this all to the program and the 12 Steps. It saved my life and sanity and turned my whole life around. I seem to recognize this more everyday I’m sober. I become more grateful as the days go by.
There was a time when I was going out every New Year’s Eve. Then came a time, when I wouldn’t. I would stay in and drink at home. My thought was that it was a night for the amateurs and not “professionals” like myself. But the result was always the same and progressively worse over time. My alcoholic insanity grew by leaps and bounds.
A good friend of mine called me last night looking for the place in the BB, where it says “We have entered the world of the spirit”. I opened my BB and found that I had a bookmark on the very page. The 10th Step. But that’s what has turned all of this around. And it reminded me of how fortunate I have been.
So, that’s my thought on this night. Just another day in sobriety and I’m so glad that I am free. A new freedom and a new happiness. A great reminder.