God is doing for us what we cannot do for ourselves.
Talking to a friend today, we were conversing about families and friends and the past. He remarked that everyone was doing the best they could. Good thought, especially for a couple of former drunks.
But then this thought struck me, how self absorbed I am. As he was saying that, I was sitting there and thinking “not me”. I realized as I thought this that this is just exactly what is wrong with me. Self reliance. There I was, thinking the same old thoughts I had thought in the past. Not only was I going back and relying on myself, but the same old “uniqueness” had slipped back in unnoticed. I had momentarily forgot who and what had gotten me sober, and keeps me that way.
I was thinking, as I am sitting here now, how much I need to focus on those life saving Steps we have been given. Bill W. said it when he reminded us that the price of sobriety is eternal vigilance. Of course I’m doing the best I can. That’s because, when I find myself slipping and sliding all over the place, the God of my understanding is there, doing for me what I can’t do for myself. Propping me up and carrying me along, when I fall down.
Just thinking about this and being grateful that I found this program.