Talked a lot about honesty, open mindedness, and willingness today. About how we stay sober.
Later another man and I talked about our higher power, life in the spirit, and a host of other things, which led to our being and staying sober. What our part is in all of this and what this spiritual way of life plays in our lives.
For me it took quite a while in here to get a handle on the HOW of this program. I resisted being honest. I certainly took a long long time in getting an open mind. And willingness had to be carved out of me along the way. But eventually I began to surrender and accept what I felt was an impossibility in the beginning of living this sober way of life.
That and all the other things we talked about this afternoon did not come into being overnight. But over time it has evolved into a reality. My dependency and belief in a higher power has grown. My faith and the practice of this faith became more real. And to think it all began with that crack of light within me called hope. And that hope still accompanies me along this journey I am on.
And to top it all off, I find that there is little or no perfection in any of this. My being human is constantly getting between me and my higher power. I often find myself missing the mark. But then I find myself asking for the help I need to continue to live sober and find that in spite of myself I still am.
This way of life is always a mystery to me. But I know it works, if I will continue to follow the instructions in the BB and what I hear from others in and outside of these meetings.
My friend an I were talking about people, who are moderate drinkers. Are not alcoholics and live a “normal” life. I don’t envy them. In fact I know that I don’t want what they have. I only want what I found in here. Nothing other than the program can fulfill what I have found in here. A new happiness and a new freedom. Peace of mind and serenity. And all the rest of the promises, including the restoration to sanity. All a miracle to me. I may not have known this way before, but having found it, it’s all I need or want.
How does it work? It works very well.