Interesting meeting today. One of our group had run into a drunk, who had fallen and was bleeding, drawing help from people outside. They didn’t go over and try to help someone, who had turned them away on occasions. They said they felt guilty for not going over trying to be of help.
I know, personally, I didn’t agree with them. In the past I had run into similar things, but seemed to have outgrown whatever pulled me into guilt. Part of that was what I had learned from my sponsor about intellect over emotions. I knew over time that I had to change.
It’s one thing to work with those, who appear to want to learn about getting sober and staying sober. It’s another to run into those, who act as if they don’t want what we are offering them. I know that, when a situation comes up, where it’s open for me to offer to help another drunk, I need to take advantage and go ahead. Even if they reject me. At least I will have tried.
However I have to remember that I’m not my Higher Power. And often I have to go to the Serenity Prayer. I learned a long time ago in here that I have no power over people. If they don’t want to change, I had learn to leave them alone. I can’t change them.
What can I change? Myself. With the God of my understandings power. Not my own. I had to learn to let go and turn myself over to my Higher Power. The wisdom to know the difference is not always inside of me. Like they taught me in here, Let Go and Let God.
I have to be grateful for all I have been given. Just being sober is a miracle for this alcoholic. And all the gifts I have received in here have changed me. That spiritual awakening, the restoration to sanity, the promises, and so much more.
Anyway, I had to stop and think about the Serenity Prayer, and also to back off and think about staying sober a day at a time. That thought needs to be there each and every morning. The start of my day. The Third Step prayer and the Serenity Prayer, and to take some time to be quiet and then start my day.
Glad that I had the opportunity to attend that meeting and listen to each and everyone. Always helps to lift and reinforce my spirit.