What an interesting meeting today. We talked about despair, and “then and now”. I liked a lot of what I had heard.
I knew I was tied up in despair right at the end of my drinking. Along with the massive control alcohol had over me, despair was what was driving me to commit suicide. And the hope saved me and helped me to pray and ask the God of my understanding for help. I was given it and freed of alcohol. A real miracle.
All that and a lot more was back “then”. “Now” is where I’m at. And right here, this day I’m to stay sober, life is extremely different. I’m happy and at peace pretty much of the time. Most of what drove me back then is gone. Fear, remorse, anger, resentments, worry, and a lot more, are mostly gone from me. I am able to base my life on hope, faith, love, compassion for others, and a willingness to go to any lengths to help them.
I think the most amazing thing is the gift of sobriety I have been given. And then not having to worry about the future. All I have to do is pay attention to what I’m doing today. Staying sober one day at a time. One of the gifts this program has given to me. Given by my Higher Power, with the help of those old timers, and the people around me today. I am most grateful and need to say “Thanks”.