One of the hardest tasks I have ever had in my life is to step back and let go of my ego. Until I finally got sober and came into this program, my ego was filled with me and nothing else. It was all about me. However, after I came here and was introduced to the Second Step, I had never really stepped back and finally worked to cut myself down to size.
The reality of all of this really started back, when I finally asked my God to help me stop drinking and promised I would do anything He wanted me to do. Yet, after I came into this program, free of alcohol, I somehow convinced myself that I was the one who had opened the door to sobriety. Yet, after I got my second sponsor, I was introduced to the Second Step.
And that’s where I was introduced to a spiritual way of life, and given the beginning of an overwhelming relationship with my Higher Power. And not only that, but my new sponsor told me what I needed to here. That was, I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I did.
That’s where the prayer, “relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better serve thee”, came in. And that’s where I finally became able to step back and begin to let go of my super ego. Over time it has begun to work. That’s where the reality of Time Takes Time began to come into my learning and changing. I finally began to learn something I needed to know about this program, which opened the door to the word “humility”.
Anyway, this was how it began last night and into this morning. I was reminded of this and it woke me up once again. I can only say I am grateful and need to thank my Higher Power, and all those old timers, and my old sponsor and his widow for reaching out and starting me to begin to live this program.