This is one of those days, when I had to stop and step back, to begin to start my day over. Getting my mind drawn off my praying and having it pulled down into the material world, is what has been going on.
And just suddenly it hit me in my mind that this way of life has to be spiritual. I have to commit myself to my Higher Power to begin this day and to stay in the moment, if that is possible. One day at a time. The thought of the prayer, “Relieve me of the bondage of self” came in and got my attention. To stop and focus on not doing my will, but my Higher Power’s.
Fortunately a friend of mine called and wanted to join me at a meeting today. That was the wake up call. It brought why I am here to my attention. And all that is an almost daily reminder of what it was that helped get me sober. And that sobriety has been with me from the beginning. Never want to forget that. The miracle is that it’s still here.
I know I need to focus on being grateful for all I have been given. To be willing, not just to say “Thanks”, but to put this program into action. To step back from thinking I am in control and be willing to do my Higher Power’s will this day. To share and receive the sharing of others like myself. Alcoholics who are working this program.
Anyway, I had to stop and think about this and pay attention to the moment. Not to project into the future, but staying in the now. But, as what has happened reminds me, I am not a saint. A human sober alcoholic, like so many of us. I know that during the day my mind will wander off from time to time, but being willing to focus on my Higher Power and why I am here, can direct me back to where I need to be. I am grateful for this reminder. Thanks.