Often times I have found myself, when I take the time and quietly sit and think about staying sober, thinking about the chapter in the BB entitled There Is A Solution. The reason I have found myself going back there is what happened to that young man in that chapter, who was being helped by Doctor Carl Jung.
Part of what is said in that chapter was what the doctor told that young man. He told him that he had the mind of a chronic alcoholic and had never seen a man with that kind of mind get sober. I had no doubt that was what was wrong with me.
I have always felt, after I read that, I had the same kind of mind. Alcohol owned me mind and body. It was totally destroying me and I could not go on. So that’s when I finally decided to end my life. I was committed to suicide and was on my way there, when an alcoholic friend of mine told me of this program and that helped to stop me.
The spiritual experience Jung told the young man he needed, and which he received, was not described. It just was. What I found that I experienced was total surrender. The night I had received that message from him, I went into my room alone, and totally turned my will and my life over to my Higher Power. As they say in here, one hundred percent. I woke up the next day and alcohol was gone. I have been blessed with freedom from alcohol since.
When I say that, I know that I am still human. I have seen too many times alcoholics, who went back out and drank, suffered, and died. However this program has given me and so many others what we need to stay sober. A way of life we have learned to put into practice a day at a time. We have changed. It’s not only in the BB and the 12&12, but in the lives of those old timers, who freely gave it to us to practice.
Anyway, I had to stop today, as I have often done before, and gone back and meditated on this. Makes me grateful to my Higher Power and all those who have helped me over time in here. And who continue to do so. I need to say thanks and hopefully give love, a day at a time.