ften I go back and revive my memories of my old sponsor and how he helped me, which changed my life. I am so grateful for all he did. It brought peace and happiness into my miserable life at the time back then. It was when I was beginning to grow in this great program.
Always the memories of what he told me keep popping up. Like he said to me, “You don’t know that you don’t know. You only think you do.” And he was right. Even though I was still in the process where I was beginning to learn, it was a perfect opening for me. A real wake up call.
He was not alone in telling me what I needed to know. There were a lot of old timers, who reached out and gave me what I needed. I often remember back a long time ago, when I had stopped talking at meetings, an old timer came in and told me that I was doing the wrong thing. He said I had arrived at a point in time, when I was able to bring this program to new comers. He told me that he was going to make sure I opened up and helped. I knew he was right and I once again became willing to freely give what was freely given to me.
I often need to do this kind of thinking. It helps renew my own mind, which helps me to stop and give thanks to these old timers. And it does open the door to my Higher Power and this spiritual way of life. Again more gratitude, which helps me to become more open and willing to follow His will. To do what I was taught and be more open with others. But also to open my mind and continue to listen.
This morning, when I was over busy and running out of time I had to squeeze my prayers into this day. To be willing to do my Higher Power’s will and to be open to what is in front of me in here. That again reminds me of my old sponsor and those other old timers. I am glad, because it renews my commitment to stay sober this day. A day at a time.