One of those things I never want to ever forget is staying sober a day at a time. Hopefully I will never forget that moment, when I prayed and asked my Higher Power to help me to stop drinking alcohol ever again. I want to always remember what I offered to do and that was to surrender and to do whatever I was asked to do in order to become sober.
Not long before that moment, as I can easily remind myself, I was going to commit suicide, because I was totally in despair, because I could not stop drinking. I knew nothing about alcoholism nor AA. I felt totally depressed. Hopeless. And then another drinking friend of mine told me that he had heard the day before that there was a meeting, where men and women went to and stayed sober. That opened the door to hope and finally I decided I needed to ask the God of my understanding for hope.
Like I said, I totally gave up and begged for help and I got it. It took my breath away the next day, when at the end of that day I hadn’t drank and didn’t want to. I often remind myself of this, because, like I said, I never want to forget this. It placed hope within me and that began faith, which eventually led to love and gratitude to my Higher Power.
So today I felt I had to stop and remind myself and give thanks for all I have been given.