We were talking to each other today. Sharing. And what it was about was being able to change. I know that, when I came in, that I would find I was totally resistant.
Then, when I got my second long term sponsor, he was able to teach me what changed me. First I had to make sure I was staying in the day. Just today. Right now. Next I had to learn to stop being in charge. I had to learn to be open and willing to follow directions.
And all that began with the effect of that Second Step. Being willing to be spiritual. To pray and turn my will over to my Higher Power. That took time. I had to slowly develop and open mind. Time takes time, but eventually it began to work. And over time in here I became open and willing to follow directions and change.
Anyway we all agreed that change is possible, if I’m willing to follow directions and do what is asked of me. I learned back then that I had to have an open mind. I had learned that I am not a saint. I’m just a human alcoholic. I know now that I am open to tripping over myself, and need to learn to step back and become willing to change. To follow directions.
It’s worked and I am grateful. I know I need to thank my Higher Power for what was done to help me to change. I also need to thank my old sponsor and all those old timers. To thank the program and the AA literature. And then to be grateful for all those, who have freely given to me. And then to stay sober a day at a time.