Once again I am reminded of imperfection. No matter how I try or think I try I will never get it perfect. This was a day, when I felt really bothered by this.
At the meeting today and on the way home, even going to the meeting, I could see the whole picture. It was imperfect. I listened to a whole lot of people talk about the second step and thought of what was missing. And then my turn came and after I mis-spoke, I could see how I was the same. We were all less than perfect.
I read a note last night, which said that the man who always wondering why he was trying to practice what he preached. He said it would be better and less phony if he preached what he practiced. I had to stop and think about that. When I talk about the steps do I ever stop and think how imperfectly I have worked them? Do I say that? Like Bill said, the only one I can do perfectly is the First.
This streak of perfectionism within me is always there. I know it, but why do I have this tendency to criticize others, when I see them fall short. If I can give myself a break, why not just let them be? In the pamphlet Acceptance, the author tells about the sheik, who lived in a tent next to a group of Whirling Dervishes. A visitor once asked him how he could stand the noise and actions of his neighbors. The sheik responded with a shrug and said, “I just let them whirl”. He knew it was not his business and just accepted.
The imperfection is none of my business. I should just let them “whirl”.
Anyway, I should just be grateful for sobriety and look to my own faults. I was thinking today of minding my own business.