Tornadoes roaring through the lives of others. That’s the BB’s description of us drinking and the results of our relationships with friends and relatives. How destructive we were to any and all.
Then alcoholics like me came into this program and stopped drinking. But the insanity was still there. The destructive individual still existed within me. I was filled with all sorts of crazy defects. I was still a hazard to myself and others.
That’s about the time my sponsor came up to me and asked me a very important question. To what lengths was I willing to go to get sober and stay sober. He was asking me something beyond not drinking. He was talking about a change within me. Learning how to live a sober life. Something I didn’t have the slightest idea how to accomplish on my own. It was beyond my comprehension. Beyond my experience and knowledge.
Without knowing what I was saying, I told him I was willing to go to any lengths. And that opened a crack in the door within. Unaware of what I was saying I had agreed that I would strive for a spiritual awakening. To begin to lead a spiritual life. How?
Like everyone else, who had come to this program, I was going to begin to work these Twelve Steps. A new way of life. Totally unaware, I was going to begin to change and eventually understand what this program was all about.
He told me not to read the BB, but to study it. And in time I began the process all alcoholics, who come here to stay sober, go through. And finally I arrived at a spiritual awakening. I was restored to sanity. I came to believe. I began to grow up and achieve something of adulthood. I began to not only repair relationships, but to develop new ones. Friends for life.
I was thinking about this, because that was part of the meeting today. To what lengths were we willing to go. That and staying sober. Both one in the same. Heard a lot of good things I needed to hear. Certainly reminded me of the importance of meetings. The importance of my higher power. And the importance of gratitude. Prayer and meditation.
Just thinking.