One of the keys to peace of mind is paying attention. I know that works for me. It’s employing the spiritual solution. Turning my problems over to my Higher Power and being aware of what I’m doing. I know, if I forget, that the cause of emotional imbalance will return.
One of my enemies within me is my discomfort. I want to dodge the feelings and end up in more turmoil than when I started. I don’t want to focus on what is troubling me. Yet I know from experience that I need to go through what I have to go through. To know exactly what it is that is troubling me. To get honest with myself and others, whenever possible. Especially being honest with my Higher Power.
Of course there is one more thing which enters into the manufacturing of problems within me. That’s my wandering mind, which is there no matter what I do or don’t do. It’s what causes me problems in every situation. I brought that kind of mind into the program and it still keeps coming back. I often think of it as being human. And that’s true. But there’s another dimension here. That’s the spiritual life I was introduced into the program.
I was thinking of this today when I found myself having to make a decision which would definitely lead me into some suspenseful pressure. I did and it did. That’s what brought me to this point of attempting to make at least a small meditation about the process and the results. I know exactly what happened as a result of turning this stuff over to my Higher Power. I found myself focusing on what it was I needed to do. The result was the peace of mind I achieved. And I know what it is I have to do to follow up.
The only reason I’m doing this now is that it’s part of my sobriety. Sober thinking and sober actions. Also to limit the emotional turmoil by placing them with my Higher Power, who is in control. I know I’m not.
Just thinking about sobriety again.