On and off I have been reading and studying the Twelfth Step in the 12 & 12, it has opened my mind even more in what it is telling me about the life I am living today. How much I have changed and the effect of this spiritual way of life within me. Amazing. It made me go back and think of what I used to be like and what I am like today. And my reliance on this program and my Higher Power has definitely helped me to grow up and respond differently to those around me, and even outside of me.
I know this has helped me to deal with the new people coming into this program. There was a time, when I really did not know how to react to people, who might be acting or speaking in a negative way. Like this part of the change in me makes me not react negatively, because my responses are not as sharp and offensive as they once were. I know that I learned that in here from those around me, as well what I was given to read and study in here.
Part of what I was thinking was how I have stopped reacting emotionally, because I recognize how less I am in control of what I am doing. How much of a reliance I have now on the God of my understanding. I know I can let go and step back in many situations and no longer react. I have been given a sense of freedom and happiness. I know I have grown in my hope and my faith in here, as well as my love and caring of others. The spiritual awakening and the restoration to sanity..
Anyway I had to take some time to think about this and come to understand the changes I have adapted to. My faith in my Higher Power has grown. I do understand that I’m not in charge and control. That I’m united with this program and the people in it. And I know this becomes more clear each day I awake and begin my staying sober a day at a time, by starting my day with prayer and commitment to do what is given to me. And I know another thing definitely helps. And that’s being free of emotional take overs. I have been helped overtime to think my way through my daily life.
Anyway I just need to step aside and give thanks to my Higher Power, this program, and all the people in it, who keep helping me.