Once again I was reminded of minding my own business. Not easy all the time. What is easy is taking someone else’s inventory. Part of my ego. And that’s where the Second Step comes into play. The need for humility. A spiritual way of life, which was offered to an egotistical alcoholic like me.
When this comes up, I am often reminded of the word “humility”. It’s often a reminder of the word “humus”, or earth. Dirt or earth. Down to earth, where I need to be. To get focused on why I am here. Not just to stay sober, but to remember that I have been given this way of life by the God of my understanding. I am here to do His will for us. To step back and give up on thinking I’m in control.
I was talking to friends of mine today, who I was willing to share my thoughts with, while they did the same. They expressed their thoughts on caring for others, which opened up the thoughts on stepping back from our egos and turning our wills and our lives over to our Higher Power. Letting go and asking for help.
All this reminded me to do what my old sponsor told me. To learn to step back and turn my will and my life over to my Higher Power. To be quiet and stay in the day. To not project into the future, but be aware of where I am at this moment. Not to go forward, or even back, but to focus on where I am at this moment.
All of this was pointed out when I was told what I needed to do. To stay sober a day at a time. And then there was the sentence which was given to me at my first meeting: can I ever afford to forget this, even for one minute?