Once again the group today talked about what we often trip over… resentments, anger, unforgiving, control…and the list goes on. We addressed these problems with the primary subject: The Serenity Prayer.
Like so many of us, I know that I repeat this prayer a lot of times in a day. Not that I’m always drifting off into negative emotions, but just to remind myself of what can trip me up. The repeating idea that I think I can control people or situations, which lead me to the start of fear, which often converts to anger and sometimes a whole lot more.
And this is where the Serenity Prayer can pull me back and put me into peace and humility once again. The idea that I can be a controller of people or situations was born in me, while I was being run by alcohol. And it was that which would fire me up to all kinds of anger and hatred of what I never had any control over to begin with. Talk about insanity…
I can remember how grateful I was, when I stopped drinking by my praying to the God of my understanding and turning my will and my life over to him and asking for freedom from drinking alcohol. I was freed and it almost totally changed my life. And part of all of this was a willingness to try to follow the will of my Higher Power, and to begin to lead a spiritual life.
And, of course, all of this goodness is the result of working this program, listening to my old sponsor and all those old timers, who taught me how to do all of this. All of this began to be based on my willingness to begin to live a spiritual way of life. To pray, and write my thoughts down, meditate, and to freely give to others what I have learned in here. To stay sober a day at a time.