Interesting day. All about what I often have to think about. About relationships. All kinds.
For me anyway, that’s what sobriety is all about. How I relate to others, or them to me, tells me a lot about myself. Every morning I pray to have myself relieved of the bondage of self. I don’t think that will ever happen. But I do try to think about it. However, over time I have made a little progress. There’s always hope.
That’s where my relationships come in. The 10th Step tells me something about that each day. Two steps forward and then one back. So it goes. Every time I can mind my own business and keep my mouth shut is progress. When I slip, and I do, I’m back in my old ways again. Irritated, angry, resentful. Bound up with me.
Can I keep my thoughts to myself? Discuss them only with a confidant, when it’s necessary? I want to. To continually grow. Along the lines I have learned in here. Spiritual. That to me is what this program is all about.
Anyway, I made some progress today, no matter what. I tried to practice these principles in all of my affairs. Inside I might have had some twinges, but I kept my mouth shut and smiled when it was appropriate. And I stayed away from emotional binges. I stayed sober. Lived a sober day. I am most grateful for what I have learned from so many and the grace of my higher power.
That’s what I was thinking.